sometimes I just wanna shut my mouth close and write.. just write.

Jealous itu Cemburu

Posted on 1:39 AM by Dr. Jazmiena M. | 0 comments


A: Awak, sebelum kenal sy awk pernah minat org lain x?
B: Em, kte bincang topik lain lah.
A: Sy cuma nk tau kisah silam awk. xkan tu pun xboleh.
B: Em okay, ye sy pernah minat org lain. name die..

pernah terjadi x persoalan mcm ni. i bet most of us pernah melalui. n i think it is normal. ok,main point. jealousy positive vs negative? honestly im a jealous type of girl. sangat2. but im balancing it coz contradictly im not outspoken type. which mean im not d type yg suka meluahkan everything. tapi kadang2 meluahkan itu perlu coz some people they r juz ignorant.

so back to the point. patut x kte jeles.

if yes?
- sbb tu fitrah manusia
- adakah sbb kt masih blum yakin org tu jodoh kt?
- mungkin seseorg tu ada kelebihan yg kita xde
- kurgnya self-confidence
- jarak jauh?
- trauma sbb sblm ni pernah ditipu?
- sbb belum ada ikatan yg sah ( so rs xterjamin)
- rasa takut utk kehilangan wujud bila kita terlalu menyayangi seseorg

if no?
- sbb yakin dia jodoh kt n akan smpai ke jinjang pelamin
- sbb kt yakin dia syg kt sorg
- sbb kt yakin kita jauh lebih baik dari seseorg tu
- self-confidence yg amat tinggi
- sbb asyik berkepit 24jam so kita tau stiap gerak geri (x blh apply kat cinta jrk jauh)
- sbb kita xsyg sgt kat die (errrr??)


To every action there is always opposed an equal reaction (Sir Isaac Newton)



Setiap alasan dan jawapan ada pros dan contra. apa-apa pun alasan, semuanya berbalik kepada ketentuan Allah :) kalau dah jodoh xkan kemana. kan.kan.kan???
cemburu itu fitrah bagi yang mengasihi, jadi xsalah utk cemburu. cuma cemburu biarla berpada, jgn sampai our special someone
merasa rimas n terkongkong. referring to this quote;


Happiness is like a butterfly.
The more you chase it, the more it will elude you.
But if you turn your attention to other things,
It will come quietly and sit on your shoulder.



so pendek kata, dalam setiap perbuatan perlu sentiasa sederhana, jgn telalu mengongkong, jgn pula overconfident cause;

comfort zone is a silent killer.



utk menjadi sesabar Khadijah, bukan mudah. tetapi berusahalah kerana Allah tidak akan mengubah sesuatu kaum melainkn mereka sendiri
yg mengubahnya. Sesungguhnya Allah bersama org2 yang sabar.

Im practising myself towards positive thinking. its a long way to go; insyaAllah, i'll never give up! Moreover ive a lotttttttt other thing to be done rather than keep thinking bout this matter. Trust in Allah, He will show the way :)

December 25
6.36pm

write-up DAY

Posted on 7:18 PM by Dr. Jazmiena M. | 0 comments

a GREAT wednesday insyaAllah..

today plan, no LABWORKS. just THESIS write-up. WRITING.WRITING.WRITING.

apa yg sy suka tentang teknologi??
anda tidak perlu ke perpustakaan kalau kesuntukan masa, malas nk jalan, or xnak kesejukan dlm library..brrr!

now i can save energy n time by reading REFERENCE BOOK ONLINE:

CAMBRIDGE BOTANICAL HANDBOOK




HARDCOVER KAIN HIJAU [xtau nk describe cmne]..MMG ANTIK BUKU NI..buku zaman dulu-dulu sangat precious. :)







now its time to READ..

SIR ABRAHAM LINCOLN SAID...

Whatever you are, be a good one



ya Allah mudahkan..insyaAllah, Ameen.

dr.Miena
10.42am

the beginning of sleepless night..

Posted on 9:00 AM by Dr. Jazmiena M. | 0 comments

12.00am. and im still struggling to digest those journals..

dizzy.dizzy.dizzy..

hungry.hungry.hungry..

d typical symptom kalau da kena wat THESIS WRITING.

im gonna finish dis within 2 months. say it 40times.. ;p

ya Allah, please make it easy..

I'm one step closer to my dream..

Phd, UK. insyaAllah, Ameen.


dr.miena

12.04am [done with a bowl of megi kari] lolx

SENYUM :)

Posted on 1:48 AM by Dr. Jazmiena M. | 0 comments




i just love d lyrics..

"Kacak luar, kacak dalam
Kacak dengar sini
Kalau saya senyum
Awak mesti senyum sekali
Kalau kita senyum
Semua orang berjangkit
Bila semua orang senyum
Dunia tiada penyakit"

senyum itu sedekah,
senyum itu tak susah,
rezeki bertambah-tambah,
jika senyum itu murah.

love peace, no war

dr.miena

serenity :)

Posted on 5:09 AM by Dr. Jazmiena M. | 0 comments

“Ya Allah Ya Tuhan kami,janganlah Kau palingkan hati kami setelah Engkau berikan hidayah,dan kurniakanlah kepada kami rahmat dari sisi Engkau,sesungguhnya Engkaulah Maha Memberi (kurnia).”

Girls day out

Posted on 2:08 AM by Dr. Jazmiena M. | 1 comments

yesterday was a looooot of fun. five of us went out (well asalnya nk window shopping jer, tapi terDOOR SHOPPING lak) heheh. destination? d spring.


heading to



snap. snap. snap.again..


me and yanie a.k.a mak




tu diaaa claudia walia




me n pokkk




K.A.M.I



ok, about few minutes then we arrived at d spring. d best part, jalan mcm personality okay! hahahha. it was d same few weeks befor during Jom Heboh, we managed to take pic with ally iskandar. over excited when he took our pic wit his own blackberry n posted it in his FB. masuk wall artis gempak woo. :p hihihi


which heel is mine??



finished shopping at nearly 3pm i guess. fuh, those r some item ive bought.
natural republic is a MUST okay? at first i planned to buy another packet of collagen mask. (well i found it suit me, it freshened my skin really!)
then d salesgirl intro me another product called SLEEPING PACK LAVENDER. uuu..lavender sounds great! y not i try it. then managed to grab another two type of face mask.. Vit A n Vit E.. i like. i like. dunno lately i love those stuff.
mask stuff..





oops, not to forget. MPH is one of the MUST-VISIT-N-BUY shop. hehehe. i bought Readers Digest Oct issue. The highlight, YOUR GUIDE TO INVESTING, SAVING & MAKING THE MOST OF YOUR MONEY. plus banking the ISLAMIC WAY. Dats' book of the month i guess. huhu. da lama xupdate my bookshelf.



Ah, how good it feels! it was great weekend i could say, hectic days x allowed me to hangout wit besties often. alhamdulillah, i really enjoyed d day. thanx girls,u ol mmg d best.

actress:
me
dyg (pok)
yani (mak)
fid (kaklong)
claudia (walia, part-time shinchan) hahahha.

" A friend is someone who understand your past, believes in your future, and accepts you just the way u are"

till then, love

cintaMu Ya Allah

Posted on 10:10 AM by Dr. Jazmiena M. | 0 comments



STARFIVE-Satu Cinta
Ku memohon dalam sujudku padaMu
ampunkanlah sgala dosa dalam diri
ku percaya Engkau bisa meneguhkan
pendirianku keimananku

Engkau satu cinta yang slamanya aku cari
tiada waktu kutinggalkan demi cintaku kepadaMu
walau seribu rintangan yang menghadang dalam diri
kuteguhkan hati ini hanya padaMu kupasrahkan

oh Tuhan...slamatkanlah hamba ini
dari segala fatamorgana dunia
oh tuhan jauhkanlah hamba ini
dari hidup yang sia-sia



(Penghambaanku – Star Five)
Samudra biru..
Bebas..
Lepas..
Luas..
Tak seperti penghambaanku
Yang masih terbatas
Seribu luka dosa yang makin menganganga
Takkan terobati dengan ribuan pahala yang cuma sebelanga
Kecuali…
Kecuali bila Engkau sudi ya Robb..
Robb..
Ampuni diri ini
Ampuni diri ini
Sampai sembuh kembali
Dibanyak malam aku berdoa
Karena diri ini trus merasa
Bagai tanah lumpur yang bernoda
Tiada bersih hanya penuh cela
Di banyak waktu aku tersadar
Hanya dosa dan dosa terhampar
Meski tetes air mata ku mengurai
Tak akan desah mampu terlerai
Ya Allah, hanya Engkau yang bisa
Ampuni hamba tunjukkan cahaya
Ya Allah, Engkau.. satu yang mampu
pertolonganMu selamatkan aku
tiada daya aku tuk melangkah
bertemu denganMu pun aku tak kuasa
tapi kepada siapa lagi ku memohon
selain kepadaMu
kembali aku
di banyak hari aku mencoba
sebut Nama untuk mengingatkan
agar tak mengulang salah-salah yang sama
salah yang selalu berakhir penyesalan
memang penghambaanku belumlah sempurna
segala nilai ibadah masih terpatri duniawi
segala nilai yang malang masih terpatri pujian
ya Allah, tetapkan imanku untuk terus di jalanMu
tiada daya aku tuk melangkah
bertemu denganMu pun aku tak kuasa
tapi kepada siapa lagi ku memohon
selain kepadaMu
tiada daya aku tuk melangkah
bertemu denganMu pun aku tak kuasa
tapi kepada siapa lagi ku memohon
selain kepadaMu
kembali aku…
aku adalah setitik buih ombak di lautan dunia
tuntun aku ya Robb
agar sampai ke pantaiMu
untuk menghaturkan
segala penghambaanku yang kupersembahkan
hanya kepadaMu

HPLC training

Posted on 8:31 AM by Dr. Jazmiena M. | 0 comments

another new skill gained, alhamdulillah ya Allah.
and d best part ive found some new applicable methods. syukur lagi ya Allah.
skrang dh jumpa chemicals dat can replace TFA. thanx to those journals.



now can start my last analysis. praying for d best results.
hope my cultures DO contain toxin.
cant wait. cant wait.
insyaAllah, please make it easy ya ALLAH.

some things are better left unsaid

Posted on 8:41 AM by Dr. Jazmiena M. | 0 comments


secret? some said confession is d best solution. but every action has an equal an opposite reaction. so y should u risk urself? uncertain consequences. i better keep it silent. only God knows. let time show everything. insyallah.

PROBLEM- it's human nature

Posted on 6:31 PM by Dr. Jazmiena M. | 1 comments


Life been soooo hectic lately. Penat yang teramat sangat. Mentally n Physically..
Teringat lagi one of my friend pernah cakap.. "org mcm jas pun ada problem????"
yerp i do have problem..but im not kinda showing my problem to other people.
Law of attraction: the more you thought bout negative thing..the more negative vibrant will approach u. so.. im juz being me.

but..

why sometimes i feel that kind of needy feeling? feels like need someone to protect me, n care for me..

and..

some people are soo weird..i juz cant understand how they think. ive tried to, but i juz cant. LoVe, im paranoid.

if..

someday i found someone who understand what i feel..accept me for what i am..n cherish every moment we have..

maybe..

that's the time im ready to love..kerana jodoh itu telah ditentukan..

insyaAllah..

God, please show me the right person...kerana hati itu terlalu suci untuk disakiti..



August, 2
9.44am

Hisashiburi-ne.. doushite? :(

Posted on 4:57 AM by Dr. Jazmiena M. | 0 comments

Doushite kimi wo suki ni natte shimattan darou?



Why did I end up falling for you?
No matter how much time has passed,
I thought that you would always be here
But you have chosen a different road

Why wasnt I able to convey to you?
My feelings that were growing everyday and night
The words begin to overflow
But I know they wont reach you now

From the first day that I met you
I felt like I knew you
And the two of us melded together so naturally

Wherever we would go, it would be together
It was so natural for you to be with me
We became adults together
But you chose a different road

Why did I end up falling for you?
No matter how much time has passed,
I thought that you would always be here (but not anymore)

Today, the day that holds a special meaning
The day that you stood with a smile of happiness
Praying to God in your beautiful appearance

With the person next to you who isnt me
The image of you receiving blessings
How could I just stand aside and watch

So why did I end up falling for you?
We cant go back to that time, or how we were (Ive thought it through)

Why wasnt I able to take your hand?
No matter how much time passes
You always shouldve been by my side
Now it will never come true

But, even though I say that I need you close to me
I just pray that you will be happy forever
No matter how lonely that makes me (or how sad)

a book a month?

Posted on 6:42 AM by Dr. Jazmiena M. | 2 comments


people INTEREST change with age.
uhh? am i changing or an exception..

book worm, or killing d tym?
d later is soo not me!
yea, doing research unable me to kill dtym,
instead tym might kill me with unreachable due date..
tis report, tat report..bz me..bz me.. ;(

jadikan membaca itu budaya kita..
hehe, betul ke motto ni?
apa2 jerla..yg penting, MEMBACA itu penting!!!

last month i manage to buy:
1) no 1 bestseller cecila ahern' p/s: i love you

2)b a happiest woman by Dr. Aidh Abdullah Al-Qarni
tp smpai skrg xabes2 lagi..hehehe

and i have THREE REPORTS TO BE SUBMITTED BY MAY!!!

LONELY

Posted on 4:51 PM by Dr. Jazmiena M. | 0 comments


lonely..
solitary, unaccompannied, lone..
abandoned, deserted, withdrawn..
its mean lonely..

lonely,
is it just me..
am i too busy..
or my heart never free..
coz i feel lonely..

lonely,
cant sleep though im sleepy..
and the heavy head i had..its dizzy..dizzy..

lonely,
maybe its just me..
coz i love thee..
more than eyes could ever see..
and its the lonely..me..

jasmina©
7.57 a.m
Saturday, April 17, 2010

yeay2! conference again..

Posted on 9:14 PM by Dr. Jazmiena M. | 0 comments


Alhamdulillah..another paper to be presented..



harap2 la paper ni one of selected paper..oh, i really nead a publication!
InsyaAllah ya Allah...

It's saturday and am here in lab WORKING!

Posted on 8:52 PM by Dr. Jazmiena M. | 0 comments


oh..alangkah indah hari ini kerana masih dikurniakan kesempatan utk bernafas..Alhamdulillah, THANX ALLAH!

dan meneruskan kerja makmal...

hihi..ok, its April 10 and am in my 3rd stage of labwork..MOUSE BIOASSAY!
Thanx again ya Allah..the results are quite promising..
most of my toxin extract are active..as a preliminary study..it's great to have this results..meaning to say, i can proceed to next stage HPLC! and it's d final stage!!!

ya Allah permudahkanlah urusanku..

sangat xsabar nk habiskan..days are hectic but thanx..i have my lovely people around me..
family and yg tersayang! :) honestly am so in love.. :) thanx sgt syg..and Thanx Allah for these great and loving people around me..

can i shout out this loud???

Life Is Inspired By Love, Guided By Knowledge & FAITH..

Till then..

xoxo,
jazmiena

Bagaikan Puteri

Posted on 3:34 PM by Dr. Jazmiena M. | 0 comments


ok..juz finished bc novel karya ramlee awg murshid..
title dier:

Bagaikan Puteri

it's mainly about love between two different dimension, from zaman hang tuah n zaman moden ni..short word to describe- SUPERB!

sinopsis: heroin bernama haryani, fall into coma after diragut oleh perampok..uhuh.. so, dlm waktu coma ni, dier telah 'terjatuh' dlm dimensi lain iaitu zaman kesultanan melayu melaka..n there's she found her first love, LAKSAMANA SUNAN..seorang phlawan yg, i would say- PERFECT! murid seorg wali sufi dari Acheh...

novel ni sgt2 best..MUST-READ-NOVEL..sambil2 tu boleh revise balik subject sejarah..hihi.. :p xsabar nk beli 2 lagi novel,trilogy from this one..

"Andai dapat ku capai Awan..Maka saktilah hamba"...Laksamana Sunan. cheerio!

p/s: cover dier pun best..mysterious girl with beautiful eyes.. :)

Posted on 4:39 AM by Dr. Jazmiena M. | 0 comments

wish to complete my writing on two papers..

conf in May and June..

i can do it..

i can do it..

insyaAllah!

Sunday morning

Posted on 10:56 PM by Dr. Jazmiena M. | 0 comments



sleep..awaken by beautiful song..
song of praising..
praising for d Almighty..
praying for Him..d Bestower of blessing..

open d window..
feels d wind..feels d breeze..
d sun rising..
d flowers blooming..
d birds singing..

cheering for sunday morning..

-jazmiena-

Imagination...

Posted on 5:13 PM by Dr. Jazmiena M. | 0 comments




Been stuck in unsolved problem did suffocates me..
And gladly a spot of light save me from darkness..

orite, how to overcome it..

I.M.A.G.I.N.A.T.I.O.N.


"Imagination is more important than knowledge" Albert Einstein

Dalam Islam sendiri pernah menyebut..kata-kata itu satu doa..insyaAllah, if there's a will, there's a way..

We're facing a lot of changes everyday, and sometimes, unexpected changes..apa yeng penting, kena sedia hadapi apa2 kemungkinan..

for me, im facing extremely, drastically (u name it) changes in my life..for d time being..sangat b'syukur coz boleh handle tis..Alhamdulillah..Allah itu sentiasa ada menemani kita..

i have 2 option im looking forward to..
1) be a gud wife
2) a successful Phd holder..

Ameen.. :)

Paper publication

Posted on 5:00 AM by Dr. Jazmiena M. | 0 comments

shud working harder to publish, at least one paper..was selected for Pertanika Journal few month ago.but sadly..ive missed the entry n sigh..ganbatte! pisang xkan berbuah dua kali..try harder jasmina!



Ya Allah..please grant me strength..